I Can’t Decide On Anything.

06/04/2026 DIARY

I have been feeling a bit lost in my life for some time now.

The uncomfortable truth be told, I’m far from happy with my current reality, and I’m scared that the choices I make next could potentially push me even further away from the life I truly want. You know when you’ve ish figured out where you want to go, still unsure about the specific address, but at least you can type in destination ‘dream life’ into Google Maps. And then, as you hit the directions button and the path slowly starts to unfold, you’re presented with fourteen different travel routes on how to get there.

Now you’re left unsure whether you should take the train, rent a car or hop on a bus to start the journey. Or wait, maybe you should just start walking? At least then you can listen to a podcast and get your steps in. Catching a flight is of course out of the equation, cause there’s no such thing as a fast track to success. You really have to face the depths of identity crisis, the mountains of highs and valleys of lows, and the hundreds of U-turns after hitting yet another dead end. Don’t get me started on all the ‘enjoy the journey, not the destination’ signs you’ll encounter along the way. So in the end, you just end up staying home.

While feeling lost and indecisive might be the two most unoriginal feelings a 25-year old could ever have, I find little comfort in the occasional well-intentioned reassurance of “oh but that’s totally normal at your age”. Now that really doesn’t help me getting any closer to figuring out if I should move to Paris, get a grown-up job, start a new bachelors degree or seriously consider investing in stocks. Or what spring jacket I should buy for that matter. I guess there was actually something to that “The Paradox of Choice” TED-talk they used to show in class. Faced with so many different things to choose from, picturing scenarios of unlived lives and roads not taken has left me numb. Having to decide between countless options feels like playing russian roulette with my future.

And as someone standing knee-deep in that awkward middle of not being able to decide on anything, I figured some motivational mantras and mindsets could help to navigate in my indecisiveness. Since I’m hardly in a position to give any personal life-advice (we don’t need a blind leading the blind situation), I have gathered some words of wisdom that I will start living by. They say your 20s are the worst hood you'll ever live in, so might as well make it cozy right?

Curiosity. I heard this advice that if you’re uncertain of what to do next, just let your curiosity lead the way. There’s often a reason why you’re curious about something, a reason why something feels attractive to you. So just follow whatever interest, hobby or side quest you want to learn more about. This also goes for having fun. My hypothesis is that fun is actually the most sustainable ingredient in making something last.

Be More Ritualistic. I’m not referring to starting an underground religious cult, but actually turning completely normal everyday practices into rituals. Watching a new movie from your must-watch list or that last episode from a show you love on a Tuesday in between dinner and a workout class? Insane. Make it an event you look forward to all day and honor it with your favorite meal and a sweet treat. I think we could all use some more blessings in our lives. I mean, the stars literally had to align for me to have my annual re-watch of The Devil Wears Prada.

Thank God I Got Rejected From That Job. Let's be real, getting rejected from a job hits you where it hurts. But lately I’ve been trying to switch my perspective a bit. Just think about it: it’s super exciting getting a job, but it’s also super exciting not getting a job. After getting over the already planned office fits and the “I’m happy to announce that” post on LinkedIn, try to find the thrill of the unknown in getting rejected. Like, what will happen then? Basically anything can happen now? Exciting! Also reminds me of my favorite quote right now: “Job market so bad might as well follow my dreams”.

Stereotypes.Onto something a tad more serious. Clothes. Oh yes, my indecisiveness have reach. Lately I have found myself overthinking what kind of aesthetic my clothes represents, and if the new pieces I want to buy will fit into my ‘dream style’ Pinterest board. Afraid that a certain piece of clothing will signal that I'm a certain type of person. F* that. As I just said, it’s not that serious, so I will start buying things just because I like them, from gothic to girly.

Baby steps. Spoiler alert: I probably don’t need to move cities and get a new career, I need to touch some grass. Sometimes the urge to rearrange your whole life is so all-consuming that you forget it's the small daily things that actually move you forward. I fall victim to this all the time, thinking I need a grand feng shui of my entire life, when in reality I just need a series of small steps to eventually make bigger leaps.

What should I eat every day for the rest of my life?A question impossible to answer. So why on earth do we feel the need to answer what we want to do for the rest of our lives? I loved the idea of having candy for breakfast, lunch and dinner growing up (might still do), but ideas changes as your tastebuds do. Of course, you’ll have to do some taste-testing to find out what you love. But no matter what you do, you should never eat something just because everyone else enjoys it. That will leave a bitter aftertaste. So you’re saying that I should start drinking straight black coffee now because that's what's expected at my age? No. I will enjoy my absurdly honey-sweetened iced coffee for now, thank you.

And that’s all for now <3